My name is Leylla, and I am quite displeased with myself as of late. Especially in the fact of who I have been directing my most sincere love to for quite a long time. Three years and five months wasted. I'm currently expecting a child in April 2011, but I am not looking for any sort of romantic relationship. I'm finding it hard to look at someone the same way as I did to my supposed love, Derrick. It's hard to move on for me, and I ask you not to judge my situation. Every relationship is different in it's own way. I still haven't forgotten him, but am pushing myself through the whole ordeal. I suppose you might say that I'm a strong person when it comes to love, because I tend to not allow things to slip away so easily from me. I'll never work less than my hardest and always try my best for the relationship to be a success.
If there's anything else that you should know about me, then it's the fact that I'm afraid to have a relationship with another man. I don't think I'm ready at all to get married, because I don't want any other man than the darling child's father to hold him/her. I'm afraid of getting tricked or played with. I am strong enough to put the differences with my exboyfriend aside to give the utmust care for my child. No matter what, I'll never let go of this baby as long as I live. He/she is the only person who I know who would love me unconditionally.
Please do not tell me that you love me, or even begin to try to start a romantic relationship with me. At this point, it's only going to hurt me further. I don't want any other's heart to be affected badly because of mine.
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I tried everything to make
it work but when you lie and are deceitful over and over again I'm sorry
but it's my life and I deserve to be happy, its over. I just want
to be like most girls and have the supportive spouse, picket fence
and kids running around playing, is that so much to ask. I am very
supportive and even if your wrong I'm not going to rub it in your face.
I am a very open person, and I believe communication is the key to a
long lasting relationship that and intimacy, although that does not
necessarily mean sex because you really have to connect with someone
to let yourself go
and fully enjoy that.
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Things I despise:
Pain
Liars
Backstabbers
Ignorant people
Hypocrites
Lacking time to do everything I'd like to do
Society's distorted vision of beauty
Being rushed
People who put other people down
People who over-complicate things
Discrimination
Hatred